DEMONS

Everyday we face a constant battle against the demons within. Image from Glitchcat.com

We all have our demons, we’ve just gotten really good at hiding them. It doesn’t matter how good we’ve become at hiding them because when it comes down to the basics, when we are at the edge of ourselves, when the final straw breaks the camel’s back. These demons, the ones we have gotten so good at hiding, they find their way up.
They claw at the dark recesses of the darkness lurking within us. They whisper to us, appealing to our dark side and cheering us on. They pick the locks on the doors holding them back. Click. Click. Can you hear them now? The darkness! The whispers!!

We all have our demons. We’ve just gotten really good at holding them back. We have managed to hold on to this facade for so long…and really well. We know how to smile when we hurt. We know how not to yell when how we feel is actually contradictory. We are able to keep calm in the midst of our storms. The storms. The storms within that rage,  wind howling like wounded dog and the thunder bellowing in the voice of a hundred thousand men . The darkness drawing us in to itself but we have gotten really good at keeping firmly rooted.

We have become happy, plastic people. We live under shiny plastic steeple. We have gotten really good at laying hands on others when what we actually wish  for is somebody to lay hands on us. We search deep down for that person who will look at us and tell us everything will be okay. We have become a shade of that thing we vowed not to become. We call it strength but is it really strength? Is it? Is it a shade of weakness? Perhaps! This has made us the cautious ones. We forget we are the ones called to walk on the edge. We have given power to these demons to hold us back. We have allowed them to keep us firmly rooted when what we were born to do is soar. Yet we have allowed our feet to be planted on this earth. We allowed ourselves to be sucked in the whirl pool that drags us farther out into the ocean of people. We’ve become to careful because let’s face it, we don’t want them to reject us. It’s like quick sand. We have our demons, the more we struggle against them the farther we sink.

We all have our demons and  we forget we are gods. What do we do when these demons find their way out? Do we stand and fight? Do we run? Do we yield? I don’t know. We just have our demons but then again what do I know? I’m a god!